Sunday, August 17, 2008

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Psychadelic ectasy
Ivory flowers
the power of the force resists you to move forward.
The hunger of the pain.
The lasting of the rain.
it won't stop
Can't stop
or can it?
juggling one's mind piece and the ability to find the resorts to schock & purification.
Should it be this way?
Or can she change.
The heart of a gremilin
The thoughts of a penguin
Lost in translation
of Life.
not only does she know it
She persues it, feeds it in, like second hand smoke.
Stupidity
Reoccurance
Language
and Distrubition
requires the actions Of she,
She has the gift of most but the Volume She lacks
She needs it
Wants it
Can't have it
Because it's no longer there.

Recreation

Psychology is concerned with all aspects of the study of behavorial, developmental and cognitive processes and employs a broad spectrum of approaches from the social to the biological to understand them. This study has intrested me for some while now, and i really want to make it my career. People and the environment that surrounds me catches my eye, and it urges me to think and write, which is to why i've made this blog, which is quite interesting though i've never paid any attention to these blogs things, now i believe i'm hooked. Which might be a good thing. expression is the best way to let your feelings and thoughts out, well to me. Well i'm living life, i have plenty to see and many to write so off i'll be, and let you really understand what's going on inside of me. Well out of all of this, there is a Wonderful but Classy world full of hate out there and it leaves a nasty taste in my mouth. All they know is Violence and who to hate. Well whenver the world starts over, and hopefully there will be another Chance. That would make you happy, then one day you've had happiness. People will no longer look at you and despise you but look at you with Grace and maybe even pride but in a very humble manner. Prolongs of avast happenings leads us not into temptaion but deliver us from evil. i've twisted many human history, with a taste of my own intellect.Sometimes you wonder why the world can be so Harsh, everybody's out to get you, if you fall they'll be right behind you lauging and grinning hastly at you, telling you they've told you so.HOW RUDE. Sacrifice is the only way you'll ever know between what's real and what's not real . A sense of reaction, that's what happened, never knew it was coming until it smacked you in the face, left with a disgraced and unholy taste left in your life. There is left little reason to Dismay that would only lead into corruption, and for allmighty! do we not need that at this moment in life. Your always guilty until proven innocent when man teaches you right from wrong, it's you that makes the decision of actually taking that right or wrong step. which ever leads the great mind into a lead of happieness, evil embarks as sins, but pleasure which would make you happy also leads to the holy as sins, So what real choices do we really have here in life?. I've quoted this slight reading from barned & nobles while sitting on the train going to work. " If there is Something to Desire, there is something to regret. If there is something to Regret there is something to recall. If there is something to recall then there was nothing to regret. IF there was nothing to regret then there was nothing to desire." Well Would you look at that? Hmph. I'm embracing life in the most postive way possible. Shadows, Demons and Obstacles stand in my way and his way of moveing forward in life. The only way i can... Is if i've been through it, have i? not even close. Sometimes i lose myself in a Rose bush full of thorns, Social drugs around me, intoxiactaion, verbalization, reaction, and Dealings with, their the highest limit for me. I force myself to Stop but continiusim is Rapid. The Pain kills me, breaking me down piece by piece. I must admit i live in Sin, i believe what people say about me is blasphmy. I'm a rounded rock, resurfacing is hard. i try to stand tall but i still fall. My fun days are no longer there it's just high and sleep. As a high as cloud but as weak as a baby's toe. Destroyed and improvished there's many around the world suffering and waiting for that good day. My enhanching knowledge will allow me to overcome my sins and uphold the Greatness that i'm will to sustain and take in. Great dealings of the ghetto and lower class dosen't mean we don't have big minds, and big dreams of escaping the shallow waters, and rising to the top. showin love around us and among us will lighten to the mood all around us, sometimes i want to shout to the world how lucky i am to have suchgreat friends, but sometimes i want to hush in all honesty afraid that somebody might take them away from me. That's how good this life can get. ;) i know tell me about it. Grateful of the mind, body and spirit which has let us all know that we live for more than just clothes, and makeup and all, But for the perciervance of all mankind, and for all humanity, we guide one other through the roughest times and broken bridges.Without you Whom do i hold? Who will hold me?turns but no one is there, nobody's here, Faced by myself. If not you , then who?There's deep simplicity in life, simple enough that most wouldn't get it, but hard enough to make people want to get it. Funny isn't it. Well their's things that would make you do such crazy things. Things i've quietly done myself. But now i'm a blogger so i'll doubt those happenings will reoccur again. { i'm being forreal } .When there's not much to do . sit and look over the Verenda , drink tea, teach yourself something new. look at something new. realize that would you've considered to be your only hope may just be two or three things out of millions of life long upholdings between countries, cities and states. There's only one catch, Are you willing to? Guide yourself through a main course of yourself, Divine Belle, that's what i've called myself, i've done a spirtual, emotional, mental, and physical overlook of myself.Confidence can take you so far and people would only look at that as insecurities, but when your not confident and yu have insecurities what would you call that? A mind of misjudgement? or girl she/he just trippin'... lol? only you can make that decision. And only you are willing to turn the fight into a disalarming bomb. That's why in Revoloution Such as now, Year 2008. Barack obama will lead us into Right hopes, life judgement, and Balance in our upheathing life. Not only he but us, when they're is nobody to help us Guide us run us through this marathon to reach to the top then we have nothing it's like we live for nothing. God hasn't put us on Earth for no purpose, or did he?I don't read to much into the bible, to me it's quite too much going on for me, noth that i'm not willing to advance myself with that knowledge but sometime's to me it's too much to believe. How has he known to put us here and not on The fartherst start away from the sun. Was he that intelligent?, no i don't doubt but it's all quite weird too me. I don't want to dig too much into that topic, i'll probably say some things that Christians nor catholics would like, and i'm not a hate person. Only of divine hope will Divine belle only let herself fall, no no, not here, not now, not....you should never say never. only the man upStairs knows the well- beings of all, and the distracted falls of many. Brillance and fatigue that's how i'm feeling not one but both. emancipation of me. These are all the words that describe me:
Witty
humorous
adventrous
smart
incapable of...
drowsy
lazy
intelligent
nerdy
creative
dreamy
Hopeless
artsy
bitchy
qwirky
spiritual
freaky
nasty
vulguar
happy
drunken
sins
heathen
godly
that's all of Divine Belle.

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Reality

Where she hustle's is out a sense of hopelesness, sort of a desperation
though that desperation becomes an addiction. - lyrically imposed by Jay-z himself.
Sometimes there's no better way, would you have thought of any other way?
She had to improvise to make a better her.
Her life remained on Auto-pilot, left at a stand-still, Jet lagged from a departure of hell in Which she's never realized meant so much at this time time and moment in her life.
it took her aback, the realization of it , she stumbles a little.
that goes to show how real it is.
The memories resurface as water overfills a rounded mug.
The addict side of her kicks in, it's like a demon that posses her small frame
She never knows of the days before as she takes part in this trance.
Her life as it is, relies on one thing
The ability to realize that she's made the stupidest mistake.